Many years ago, when I experienced the first great move of God in my life...when God was first instructing me in HIS ways....I was learning how just my obedience to him made others uncomfortable... At first I became uncomfortable too after seeing there reactions...For these were leaders in the church... Innocently, I believed that because I was in a church that was growing in Christ that everyone believed the BIBLE...the whole bible....God was about to show me how untrue that belief was.... and it was heart breaking!
Back then I was just a baby in Christ but being taught by the Holy Spirit...and I was a part of a ladies Bible study that was being blessed beyond measure...growing in love and in spirit. Believing the old and the new testament...What sweet days they were...We were innocently seeking the face of God and the favor of his anointing... We didn't realize it but that anointing that God was imparting on us was about to make some very uncomfortable.... We were about to understand what it really meant to be crucified with Christ.
Believing in the healing power in the old testament and the words of Jesus in the new testament, "Greater things you will do.." ... We were living, praying and growing for his glory. Standing unwavering on the word of God and not doctrine. God was about to show us the the weak foundation of the church in which we were apart of..... God was about to shake it up... and he was using us!
I found out during those days what it meant to be crucified with Christ and the high price of his favor. Shamefully, I did shrink back some...questioning all I had learned... How could it be that I am innocently seeking the face of God but yet being persecuted as well...and in his church~ I simply could not understand how God's church could not believe the whole bible... How could the old testament be for "Back then" when the God of the old testament is the very God of the new and the very God of today?? I sought answers in prayer and God allowed me to see the evil that had entered in that church..(He didn't reveal to me why however I could have guessed as I was living so much of it..) for in this word of knowledge I saw a demon in the back of the sanctuary..huge in statue greater than 8ft in height.. I could gage this because when I saw it, it was standing in front of the double doors. It's the form was human like however, it had huge wings...it's skin was as dark crimson, velvetish in appearance. It's head was covered in horns. It had what appeared to be a head band of sorts which impressed on me some type of ranking.. It's eyes were as flames. It's mouth was open and blackness was in his mouth. And it knew I was there... as it turned to look at me....an immense hatred was felt... but at the same it felt in charge as if it had been given orders... I prayed and even spoke to my pastor about it as we prayed together. I didn't see it again but could feel it's presence for several weeks after that every time I went into the sanctuary I would have a crushing nauseating headache...so severe I would have to leave. That would be the beginning of a downward cycle the church would undergo. This wasn't the first time I would see demons at this church but they were never allowed into the sanctuary....Those were much smaller and would stand outside the sanctuary and would inspect every body as they would enter as if they were searching for a right through the people entering the sanctuary... But this time...this was different...
After a short time, I just did not feel that was my church home any longer. My family and I withdrew from that church body. Cautiously.... not leaving God but seeking to find a church where his spirit was welcomed... Where the body would understand that the whole bible was inspired by God and is to be used for edification and correction for His glory. Then little did I know that it would be years before God would impress upon my heart a certain church in which he is blessing... blessings that are flowing beyond measure....a church where the love of Jesus Christ reigns....
At this point I feel as though I have come home... At this point in my walk with Jesus Christ...Dwelling with his Holy Spirit...God is telling me not to be ashamed...and not to fear their faces...For at one time I was made fun of for the gifts that God has given me.... at one time others did laughed and ridicule me...But, now is a time of restoration...God has placed in my spirit so strongly not to reject his people for he is sending them...accept them whole heartedly...I feel there is a spiritual awaking on the arisen... and I am so excited to be apart of that!! God is showing me the sharp contrast of my church so many years ago and the church he is leading me to today... This church is seeking his favor...seeking his face...undivided.....and God can not help himself...he is blessing this church and the vision is spectacular! He is building his church and the gates of hell can not prevail against it... God is pouring out his spirit and the people of God are receiving him.... Spectacular things are happening but this is only the beginning... A spiritual awaking is occurring... Once again the church of Jesus Christ will be the light in the darkness... Praise the Lord!
2 Corinthians 13:4 (Whole Chapter)
For though he was crucified through weakness, yet he liveth by the power of God. For we also are weak in him, but we shall live with him by the power of God toward you.
Galatians 2:20 (Whole Chapter)
I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.
For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek.
Revelation 22: 7
Behold, I come quickly: blessed is the that keepeth the sayings of the prophecy of this book.
1 Peter 5: 8
Be sober, be vigilant: because you adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about seeking wheom he may devour.
1 Peter 5:6
Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God that he may exalt you in due time.
2 Timothy 1:8
Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God;
2 Corinthians 10:8
For though I should boast somewhat more of our authority, which the Lord hath given us for edification, and not for your destruction, I should not be ashamed:
Galatians 6:7
Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.
Galations 6:17
From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus.
Ephesians 6:10-13
10Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
13Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
Hosea 5:6
They shall go with their flocks and with their herds to seek the LORD; but they shall not find him; he hath withdrawn himself from them.
